...there was another post.
I literally was trying to take a "selfie" (am I the only one who is a bit bothered by these micro-labels for everything nowadays?) to put on this blog for my profile picture and I couldn't bring myself to smile or even look natural, so needless to say, I didn't feel good about using any of them! That's one of the new developments within the last few years. I have trouble conjuring up an authentic smile on demand (smiling came readily before).
I felt the need to write after listening to General Conference (where The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints' members gather, whether in person at the conference center or over satellite, to listen to the words of the prophet and apostles of Jesus Christ), and now I find myself at a loss as to what I wanted to write about. I had many a thought, so many moments of swelling emotion that came out in tears that had to be held back, of sweet feelings as well. Basically, though, I won't be writing about General Conference today, other than to say I needed it. And I'm looking forward to the messages being available this week to reread and ponder over them. And also afraid. Change doesn't come so easily.
I will just say, none of these writings will be in any particular order by actual time of occurrence. I will write based on the emotional weather that day, and I will attempt to write once a week (but let’s be honest- I’m not willing to get locked in to a schedule when it’s highly unlikely I’ll be disciplined enough to keep up). But, I feel the very real need to write when my heart is full or heavy. So, that’s what this is for. I may write a more introductory post about my experiences and situation, or I may not and just see where the writing takes me. I hope that while this blog helps me, it can also help others somehow, such as feeling less alone in their personal struggles.
Deep breath. Nervous...
Here we go. Wish me luck. I’ll need it.
I felt the need to write after listening to General Conference (where The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints' members gather, whether in person at the conference center or over satellite, to listen to the words of the prophet and apostles of Jesus Christ), and now I find myself at a loss as to what I wanted to write about. I had many a thought, so many moments of swelling emotion that came out in tears that had to be held back, of sweet feelings as well. Basically, though, I won't be writing about General Conference today, other than to say I needed it. And I'm looking forward to the messages being available this week to reread and ponder over them. And also afraid. Change doesn't come so easily.
I will just say, none of these writings will be in any particular order by actual time of occurrence. I will write based on the emotional weather that day, and I will attempt to write once a week (but let’s be honest- I’m not willing to get locked in to a schedule when it’s highly unlikely I’ll be disciplined enough to keep up). But, I feel the very real need to write when my heart is full or heavy. So, that’s what this is for. I may write a more introductory post about my experiences and situation, or I may not and just see where the writing takes me. I hope that while this blog helps me, it can also help others somehow, such as feeling less alone in their personal struggles.
Deep breath. Nervous...
Here we go. Wish me luck. I’ll need it.
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